MILOSC

Guess who's back? Back again? uh, you might wanna reply "Slim Shady" right about now, LOL. It's me ya'll! Your favorite Chi-City gal :) As usual it's been some time since i last wrote. I believe it was still summertime. Yup, the sun was shinin, the birds were chirpin, i was still married and livin at my house....So, now its fall..the sun hides out a lot, the birds migrated, i am officially divorced and moved into an amazing apartment. woooo hoooo! its been a long road but i finally made it to the end....or should i say its just my beginning ;)
I can't even begin to tell you all the feeling that i have in me these days. Its actually amazing to feel comfortable in your own skin and in your surroundings. I knew i would feel good once the divorce was settled and once i was out of that house. But, honestly, i never thought it was gonna be this great. Believe it or not, i actually wanna come home again. People feel comfortable in my apartment and i love that. I LOVE EVERYTHING!! ok, ok, so you've heard me say that before...this LOVE thing i constantly speak of. Well, what can i say...Love is the answer to every problem. Love is my key to happiness. Love has made me become a better person. I gotta tell ya guys that something so beautiful and complicated at once has really overcome my soul, mind, an heart. I am addicted to this feeling that comes so naturally to me..i speak of LOVE of course. I should inform you that since i last wrote i got a new tattoo as well...and if you pay attention to my writing, then its easy to guess what i got branded on my body forever...yep, you got it.. and i hope it only took ya'll one guess...the answer is ( drum roll please, lol) MILOSC!!!! (which is the word LOVE in polish). Its beautiful, sexy, and sweet, an fits perfectly on my forearm. So, to tell you the truth I'm surprised i ain't not dead, cuz my mama wanted to KILL ME! hahaah. Eh, she got over it, obviously. But she did have one question for me. She says "i just don't understand why you lost your mind at almost 30 and not 18?" i cant blame her for thinkin this...but my answer to her was " at 18 i would have gotten a stupid butterfly that meant nothing to me, but now that I'm older i finally feel comfortable with my body, my mind,and my heart..so my tattoos mean more to me then anyone will understand" She still looked at me like i had a third eye, so at that point i just left it alone and didn't try to explain something she just might never understand anyway. That's my mama for ya :)
im sittin here blogging and listening to R Kelly ( his newest, and one of my fav cd's at the moment by the way) and i will tell you this. There are only 2months left of this year. A year that has changed me for the rest of my life. A year that i will never forget. what i have accomplished in one year, would have normally taken me 3. i am at total peace in my apartment, with the candles lit, and my music playin. i Love life and all that it has to offer. I thank God for my health and for the health of my loved ones. I thank all those that have been there when i needed them most. I thank my mama, and my sister (the first 2 loves of my life). I cant wait to see what this new year will bring me...Hopefully a new hubby, lol....what??? a girl can always dream, lol.
Goodnight my darlings...i will write soon, xoxoxo im off to Kashiland